One Really Difficult Day

I don't really know how to start this post.  I guess I will say that I have read many many adoption blogs and never read one like our gotcha day.  We arrived only minutes prior to YiLin.  When they walked in she took one look at us and burst into tears.  I told my children that this could be a good thing.....however, she cried frantically for a very long time and the master nanny tried to get her to me but she screamed and kicked and would not let go of her.  We went over the paperwork and they told us all about her.  I asked all my questions and finally after an hour and half, the nanny had to just drop her into Lily ( our guide/translator's) arms.  She screammed bloody murder and kicked and managed to break free of her.   By that time, the nanny was long gone.  Jeremy was on one knee pretty close to the exit door and I just knew she was gone after the nanny.  She ran toward the door but flew into Jeremy's arms instead.  She clung to him and immediately stopped crying.  We all sat there praying and I looked over to Lily and she was crying too.  I started crying and pulled out the camera to capture the moment.  It was amazing.  He comforted her so well.  He is her friend for life now.  I sat there thanking God that Jeremy was able to comfort her.  We all just watched in amazement.

 

That was yesterday......it was a very long evening.  Yi Lin is very sick right now.  Her chest rattles and she sounds like whistles are in her lungs.  Her nose is a mess....and her eyes continue to run green.  Jeremy is tring to get her to take the antibiotic right now.  I pray she takes it.  If she has fluid on her ears, the plane ride could be very painful for her.

 

She has not spoke a word since we left the Civil Affairs Office.  She nods yes and no.  She finally let me take her last night long enough for Jeremy to go to McDonalds and pick us up supper and to the supermarket to get her a bottle and milk.  She didn't want it.  She did eat 3 nuggets and some fries and drank some hot water.  I was afraid she might dehydrate because she refused to drink until after she ate.  I thought we were going to have to put her to bed without a bath or changing her.....but when I ran the bath water, she started undressing and seemed content with it.  I washed her hair too....she didn't even fuss.  I put her pj's on and Jeremy and I sat on the bed beside her crib with her.  She let me rock her to sleep.  She rested well last night, but coughed terribly.  She has alot of congestion in her chest and head.  She woke this morning content and let Marshall hold her and watch a short dvd.  I changed her and combed her hair.  We are staying on her schedule so breakfast was at 7.  She ate 3 bowls of congee but didn't want anything else.  She is coloring now and using the stickers.  She is very smart and colors like an 8 or 9 year old.

 

She will look at us in the eyes, it doesn't seem to bother her.  Although, she won't look at our eyes for more than 5 seconds or so.  She has not smiled, but maybe given us 1 or 2 half grins.  She can wear the clothes I brought and seems to be the exact size of my great niece Kaylee.  The nanny was very satisfied that Emery Min, Yan and Annabell will be able to communicate with Yi Lin.  She was so happy when I pulled out their photos with their families.  I told them that Yan's family is coming soon.  She was happy.

 

YiLin stashes all kinds of stuff in her pockets.  The nanny said she does it all the time and maybe she is not secure.  I definately believe this to be true.  We will really have to work on making her feel safe.  We have given her little bags of fruit snacks to carry around and she will not let them go.  She also clings to the flashlight I brought, she even slept with it.  I asked the nanny if she had someone with her during her long 3 hospital stays and she said no.  I felt like someone ripped my heart out.  That will never happen again.....and it will take a very long time to make up for the harm that has done to her.

 

Pray that she takes the medicine.  Pray that adventually she will be happy and smile.  She is alot like her baba.  The nanny said she supresses her emotions and doesn't let them show.  He does too.

 

Ian has a virus on his IPod and we can't use the Chinese apps we downloaded or he can not text either.  I will do my best to post later, and pray that I don't get a virus on my laptop.  I am going shopping for the orphanage now.  They really need diapers......lots of diapers in many sizes she said.

 

I am thankful for the improvements I have seen in Yi Lin since yesterday.  I am thankful for Lily.  I am thankful for my family being so loving and patient with her.  I am most thankful to God for loving Yi Lin more than I do and knowing what is best for her.  We will do whatever it takes to give her a good life and come to know the Lord as her Savior and with Him, it is possible.

With all our love........